Nostalgia Is A Beautiful Yet Sad Thing
When you struggle to remember a certain memory buried in the past, you seek to relive what it felt like at that moment, try to etch out the person’s features and their expressions in your mind, strain to remember smells and sounds.
I can remember the smell of rain piercing the dry, cracked. That cool, earthy aroma which used to emanate and spread everywhere as rain washed everything in its way. I also remember how the wet cool mud felt beneath my feet, squelching between my toes as I scrunched them up. After the scorching summer, the rain was always a welcome relief. As soon as thunder cracked its whip and a cool breeze swooped down, we as kids ran outside to receive the first cool drops of rain. The feeling was almost magical. Gleeful kids kicked off their shoes and ran barefoot splashing mud and playing football in the rain.
As a 20-something now, living away from home, rain doesn’t feel so magical anymore. I haven’t felt that mad, giddy excitement in a long time which would impel me to run out and get soaked. Watching the rain pour down from my window always brings back those memories. Reliving them in our heads, we smile unconsciously and then with a sinking feeling realise that we can never go back there again. A thorough 90s kid, I feel blessed that Smartphone’s, laptops, tablets did not exist back then. Because as children when we set off for my grandmother’s place in robust spirits during the summer holidays, we didn’t have a Smartphone to fiddle with. The 90's child had a very happy childhood.
With the weight of the world firmly settled on our hunched shoulders, head bowed over our smartphones, eyes scanning messages and emails, I can’t remember the last time I felt young, carefree and excited. t will never be the same anymore, I might never feel that passionately or strongly again. Memories remain and the most we can do is perhaps call our old friends, all busy in different cities and laugh a little about how silly and happy we were before we hang up and return to our lives!
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